… I tried everything to stay, but my life
turned into a hell on Earth. I don’t know
who to blame – whether it was me who shaped
my life into what it is or whether it was my
destiny. I don’t know where I am about to go
- is there anything at all or is there a
hellfire waiting for me. Therefore, I am
twice as scared. I know that suicide is the
most disgusting thing to do. It’s a betrayal
of oneself, the close ones and the world. I
despise myself for this, but I’m gonna do
this. I found no solution other than death.
I am sorry. Farewell.
P.S. One day I wrote this note, but stayed
alive. Many years after, I found out why
everything happened exactly this way. After
this all my energy directed on dying was
used for creating this project.
P.P.S. And I do not regret about it.